this year at Christmas...the world looks different. i know that reflection is for new years eve...but I'll get to why i'm reflecting over the year earlier...later??? our lives have changed dramatically this year... here are a few things...
. Steve and I spend New Years Eve just the 2 of us... not that this was a problem we just didn't have any friends to hang out with...we did call aaron and mel at midnight to wish them a happy new year from the future...which we will do AGAIN this year:).
. I left my job at Harrison. It was SO cool teaching the kids...however... i wasn't a huge fan of all the politics...and I really didn't have time to teach at the studio AND to teach at harrison...so when Steve told me we could afford me leaving...i jumped at the chance.
. STEVE AND I GOT MARRIED!! Obviously, this was huge. But really really really really really awesome. When i dreamed about the man I would marry...I never thought of marriage like this. Steve is my best friend, who i can tell anything to, and who knows exactly what i need without me saying this. I will say that many times I feel like i pale in comparison to his amazing sense of my needs. What a super cool fellow.
. Steve and I take our honeymoon. Fall in love with Santa Cruz and both start making plans in our heads to move their. I decide that my dream is to work at IKEA.
. About a week after I find my calling to be IKEA...God drops the opportunity in our lap to buy the studio...so we then realize...THAT'S what God wants...not the santa cruz thing...so we put the west on hold for now.
.We attend mission point community church and realize ANOTHER reason God didn't want us in California for now. We start to build friendships and are greatly encouraged.
. We buy the studio, and head to Kentucky for my family reunion...on the way down... we get into a car accident. God protected everyone involved...and the van was totally driveable... praise God it could have been MUCH worse.
We lose 2 friends to cancer and one of our best friends loses her father within weeks of one another... we rejoice that they are in heaven...but are saddened that we cannot enjoy them face to face.
. Steve and I celebrate our engagement year anniversary...and get a PUPPY!! Cash becomes one of the greatest additions to the family to date and we love him to pieces.
.Steve and I look for a new house and FIND ONE... we.love.it. 305 Audi baby!!
. We find a new location for the studio. We rename and rebrand...crazy.
. We are invited to 4 new years eve celebrations this year...4. We love our friends that we've made this year and look forward to growing closer to them in this next year and sharing our lives with these incredibly cool people.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Friday, December 17, 2010
people who look like people...
today while i was watching breakfast club i had this shocking realization... sam gillis looks JUST like Anthony Michael Hall
This is Sam...
This is Anthony Michael Hall...
I rest my case...
This is Sam...
This is Anthony Michael Hall...
I rest my case...
Sunday, December 12, 2010
hi, i think i might be crazy...
i like eating.
i like food.
my husband is an AMAZING gourmet cook.
i make baked goods that will put you into a diabetic coma.
and at the beginning of january steve and i are going on the daniel fast.
what is the daniel fast?
A 21-day partial fast based upon Daniel's own experiences as recorded in the Bible. The purpose is to restrict commonly enjoyed foods as an act of worship and consecration to God. Someone who chooses to undergo a Daniel Fast demonstrates a physical commitment that reflects a deep spiritual desire for a more intimate relationship with the Lord.
Pretty cool right? I had another friend explain that it was getting rid of your old vices (like a cleanse...nice after the holidays) and growing closer to God. When you do it as a couple you also get closer to one another...neat right? ummm, i think? let me explain a little further. the fast is fairly restrictive... and by fairly i mean this...
NO...
meat or animal products
no dairy
no sweeteners... natural or otherwise
no leavened bread or yeast
no refined or processed foods
no deep fried foods
no solid fats
no alcohol, carbonated drinks, coffee, energy drinks, herbal tea, and tea.
ok, wait, WHAT???? umm...I'm out. WELL...not really. We are doing this together BUT we're going to tailor it a bit to ourselves...here's what it looks like.
NO red meat, pork, limited chicken, and fresh eggs
Skim milk, although mostly soy and no cheese
only natural sweetener (honey, all natural sugar)
whole grains only
no refined or processed foods
no deep fried foods
no solid fats
no hard alcohol or beer, no coffee, energy drinks, only diet soda (that ones for me)
i'm kind of rocking the pansy daniel fast but this is epic for me...I've never done ANYTHING like this in my life. seriously. i'm excited to do this with steve and excited for our trip to trader joes:). steve did something like this earlier this year and dropped over 20 lbs in 21 days AND has kept it off...wow. Hoping i can shed some l.bs as well!:) Until then... I'm enjoying my holiday treats:). There are 40 or so cupcakes on the back porch.
i like food.
my husband is an AMAZING gourmet cook.
i make baked goods that will put you into a diabetic coma.
and at the beginning of january steve and i are going on the daniel fast.
what is the daniel fast?
A 21-day partial fast based upon Daniel's own experiences as recorded in the Bible. The purpose is to restrict commonly enjoyed foods as an act of worship and consecration to God. Someone who chooses to undergo a Daniel Fast demonstrates a physical commitment that reflects a deep spiritual desire for a more intimate relationship with the Lord.
Pretty cool right? I had another friend explain that it was getting rid of your old vices (like a cleanse...nice after the holidays) and growing closer to God. When you do it as a couple you also get closer to one another...neat right? ummm, i think? let me explain a little further. the fast is fairly restrictive... and by fairly i mean this...
NO...
meat or animal products
no dairy
no sweeteners... natural or otherwise
no leavened bread or yeast
no refined or processed foods
no deep fried foods
no solid fats
no alcohol, carbonated drinks, coffee, energy drinks, herbal tea, and tea.
ok, wait, WHAT???? umm...I'm out. WELL...not really. We are doing this together BUT we're going to tailor it a bit to ourselves...here's what it looks like.
NO red meat, pork, limited chicken, and fresh eggs
Skim milk, although mostly soy and no cheese
only natural sweetener (honey, all natural sugar)
whole grains only
no refined or processed foods
no deep fried foods
no solid fats
no hard alcohol or beer, no coffee, energy drinks, only diet soda (that ones for me)
i'm kind of rocking the pansy daniel fast but this is epic for me...I've never done ANYTHING like this in my life. seriously. i'm excited to do this with steve and excited for our trip to trader joes:). steve did something like this earlier this year and dropped over 20 lbs in 21 days AND has kept it off...wow. Hoping i can shed some l.bs as well!:) Until then... I'm enjoying my holiday treats:). There are 40 or so cupcakes on the back porch.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
i heart photo editing...
so, i LOVE photo editing. what's wrong with me? yeah, i have no idea. I feel like i would like it LESS if I did it for a living but when I'm boppin around facebook and gunner is watching the football game...i like to have SOMETHING to occupy my time:). So here's some of what I like to do...
Here are a few shots I did tonight. My brother and his LONG time girlfriend recently got engaged and here are a few of their engagement pictures... and then the ones I re-did.
edited...
another original
edited...
as you can see...it's fairly easy. i like my pictures to look cool and artsy...because let's face it...aren't photos art??
-k
Here are a few shots I did tonight. My brother and his LONG time girlfriend recently got engaged and here are a few of their engagement pictures... and then the ones I re-did.
edited...
another original
edited...
as you can see...it's fairly easy. i like my pictures to look cool and artsy...because let's face it...aren't photos art??
-k
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Oh Crap! I'm late for work...just kidding.
So, I don't know what it is about this week but for some reason I seem to be missing/running late/completely forgetting about lessons. So while I stopped over at "grandma linda's" so Cash could visit her I said "mom I gotta check my e-mail really quickly..." and while I was FULLY expecting to be in at 5:30 today...guess what... NOPE I had a student at 4:30 (and crap...it's 4:22) so I quickly say by to mom and throw (more like gently place) Cash in the car and run over to the studio...Guess what... no student. AND my husband isn't here?? WHAT??!! I'm so cornfused. So Cash and I ran around the studio for a bit and now he's laying in his favorite spot (in front of the door). OH for those of you who don't know...Cash is our new PUPPY! He's great. Honestly sometimes I feel overwhelmed and this is generally how the conversation follows
Random Person:"Oh, is he not sleeping??"
Me:"no, actually he's a GREAT sleeper!...he usually sleeps for about 8 hours at night...on the floor of our bedroom"
RP: OH so he potties on the floor of your bedroom??
Me: "no, he's really good about that"
RP: "well, is he not doing a good job pottying?"
Me: "no, actually he's AWESOME and really has been since the first day we got him...he only pees at my parents house..."
RP: Well, what's wrong??
Me: Well, he doesn't like his cage and can't stop chewing things...
RP: That's probably because he's a puppy.
Dang it, I'm a bad puppy mommy. In my defense though... I've never had a dog/puppy. EVER. In my whole life. I think I'm going to go ahead and blame my mom for never letting me have the experience. She's actually terrified of dogs. Cash went to my parents house FIRST when I brought him home from Michigan. So he's known them basically as long as he's known me. He got up on the couch at their house yesterday (which is verboden at Grandma's) and my mom said "no Cash, get down" and then said... Karyn, he won't get down... to which i replied Mom, just pull him off. She then said "i tried, but then he looked mean so i didn't" ARE YOU KIDDING ME MOM?? HAVE YOU SEEN MY PUPPY??!! He's basically a giant furball of love and puppiness. Poor terrified mom...maybe that's why Cash is always peeing at their house... the smell of fear in others makes him pee.
Welp, I'm off to do lessons in a bit. What a GLORIOUS fall afternoon.
Random Person:"Oh, is he not sleeping??"
Me:"no, actually he's a GREAT sleeper!...he usually sleeps for about 8 hours at night...on the floor of our bedroom"
RP: OH so he potties on the floor of your bedroom??
Me: "no, he's really good about that"
RP: "well, is he not doing a good job pottying?"
Me: "no, actually he's AWESOME and really has been since the first day we got him...he only pees at my parents house..."
RP: Well, what's wrong??
Me: Well, he doesn't like his cage and can't stop chewing things...
RP: That's probably because he's a puppy.
Dang it, I'm a bad puppy mommy. In my defense though... I've never had a dog/puppy. EVER. In my whole life. I think I'm going to go ahead and blame my mom for never letting me have the experience. She's actually terrified of dogs. Cash went to my parents house FIRST when I brought him home from Michigan. So he's known them basically as long as he's known me. He got up on the couch at their house yesterday (which is verboden at Grandma's) and my mom said "no Cash, get down" and then said... Karyn, he won't get down... to which i replied Mom, just pull him off. She then said "i tried, but then he looked mean so i didn't" ARE YOU KIDDING ME MOM?? HAVE YOU SEEN MY PUPPY??!! He's basically a giant furball of love and puppiness. Poor terrified mom...maybe that's why Cash is always peeing at their house... the smell of fear in others makes him pee.
Welp, I'm off to do lessons in a bit. What a GLORIOUS fall afternoon.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
myspace 3
i watched as sunset slipped away in misty clouds above the lake and held your hand and made you laugh as evening melted all away. You make threats sound like promises that hold you to your past and the here and now will be by gones and this moment is our last. Your words they seem like quicksand, you move, it keeps you there. and the things you say sound like compliments as your fingers touch my hair. The summer's all the same here. It's quick and then it's gone. like an easy sunday lover who never stays for long.
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myspace 2
your words hit like breakers on the rocks down below and the love that you deny has started to show. The time and the effort are laid to waste. And the sweet drinks you poured are lost of their taste. Your efforts are grand and you piss time away waiting and biding and hoping she'll say the things that you long for and the things that you crave and so in turn she's made you her slave. You long for the freedom that will come with the truth. You think she doesn't notice because of her youth. But she sees and denies and prays it's not so. But the cracks in the walls are all starting to show. It's not fair but that's life and we know you'll get through. Because it's happened before...but not ever to you. So when the things crumble and it all hits the fan. Who will be left to hold your hand. To help you get through the significant loss? Who will be there to help with your cross? You know there was someone who always was there. Sitting quite close in one of your chairs and you turn to tell her you're sorry for this. That the hints that she threw were so hard to miss. You turn 'round to see her and find that she's gone. Left long ago while your heart you pawned. So not only alone you're lost and betrayed. Hearts littered on rocks...this mess that you made.
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myspace...
laying here my empty shell
left without it's life
you stole more than you'll ever know
your words become my knife
and the cuts you keep inflicting
you are cutting to the core
and the fact that all this cutting
won't affect you anymore
and that all your lies you told never gave you consequence
because once the bloodshed's settled you and i will be past tense.
but you'll keep moving on where your wrongs outweigh your rights
while i continue in the dark because you took my light.
and i wish that my pretending was how i truly felt
and i wish that i was the one that made your weak heart melt
but I guess that's too much wishing for anyone to miss
and i will say good bye inside while wishing for this kiss
you'll run to her because i matter not enough
and you'll run to her forgetting that this is still so tough
because you're leaving with your heart intact not mangled like before
and i will be an easy blame because I'm a stupid whore.
I'm sure this will offend you if this is ever heard
but your actions are screaming loudly far beyond your words.
and the fact that i'm left hanging while you take my heart away
and you leave to california and I'm sure that you will say
that she's the only one for you and you loved her the best
I'm sorry let me say this...I've got to get this off my chest
he said the same things to me when it was my bed he was in
and i hate to see you hurt this way but he'll do it all again.
I wish that i could shed some tears I wish that i could care
but his smell is on my pillows and his sweat is in my hair.
Good luck with what you're getting this beautiful man mess
Remember just a week ago it was me he loved the best.
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left without it's life
you stole more than you'll ever know
your words become my knife
and the cuts you keep inflicting
you are cutting to the core
and the fact that all this cutting
won't affect you anymore
and that all your lies you told never gave you consequence
because once the bloodshed's settled you and i will be past tense.
but you'll keep moving on where your wrongs outweigh your rights
while i continue in the dark because you took my light.
and i wish that my pretending was how i truly felt
and i wish that i was the one that made your weak heart melt
but I guess that's too much wishing for anyone to miss
and i will say good bye inside while wishing for this kiss
you'll run to her because i matter not enough
and you'll run to her forgetting that this is still so tough
because you're leaving with your heart intact not mangled like before
and i will be an easy blame because I'm a stupid whore.
I'm sure this will offend you if this is ever heard
but your actions are screaming loudly far beyond your words.
and the fact that i'm left hanging while you take my heart away
and you leave to california and I'm sure that you will say
that she's the only one for you and you loved her the best
I'm sorry let me say this...I've got to get this off my chest
he said the same things to me when it was my bed he was in
and i hate to see you hurt this way but he'll do it all again.
I wish that i could shed some tears I wish that i could care
but his smell is on my pillows and his sweat is in my hair.
Good luck with what you're getting this beautiful man mess
Remember just a week ago it was me he loved the best.
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April 12, 2008
the destruction of truth, the slaughtering of innocence.
Current mood: exanimate
Category: Life
trust is fleeting.
it rarely comes and never stays for long.
Here this day and gone too soon
Lost over trivial matters...
Or are they so trivial?
No, this is not my concern...this is yours and yours alone.
Watching you masquerade this "honesty", a badge of self righteousness
so boldly pinned upon your chest.
You fear my honesty because you fear that I too am with holding crucial evidence.
Never really traveling down the lying main street...
but sticking to the side roads as to elude.
i know... the games you believe to be hiding
i know...the truth that is better kept to keep from dividing
and i know how much easier this would be.
and no one really listens to me.
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Current mood: exanimate
Category: Life
trust is fleeting.
it rarely comes and never stays for long.
Here this day and gone too soon
Lost over trivial matters...
Or are they so trivial?
No, this is not my concern...this is yours and yours alone.
Watching you masquerade this "honesty", a badge of self righteousness
so boldly pinned upon your chest.
You fear my honesty because you fear that I too am with holding crucial evidence.
Never really traveling down the lying main street...
but sticking to the side roads as to elude.
i know... the games you believe to be hiding
i know...the truth that is better kept to keep from dividing
and i know how much easier this would be.
and no one really listens to me.
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April 30, 2008
technology is killing us...
Current mood: fascinated
Category: Romance and Relationships
i can be tortured...if that's easier for you. i can't wait for anything and I guess that it's true. That we were doomed from the start curses on my fractured heart. Funny how the irony seems to be wasted...on everyone but me. It all seemed so impersonal and strangely too polite. I was screwed but so were you so I guess that it's alright. The time it takes for my moods to change is shorter than you changing your mind. Follow, follow you beckon how can i leave this behind?
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Current mood: fascinated
Category: Romance and Relationships
i can be tortured...if that's easier for you. i can't wait for anything and I guess that it's true. That we were doomed from the start curses on my fractured heart. Funny how the irony seems to be wasted...on everyone but me. It all seemed so impersonal and strangely too polite. I was screwed but so were you so I guess that it's alright. The time it takes for my moods to change is shorter than you changing your mind. Follow, follow you beckon how can i leave this behind?
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Sunday May 11, 2008
Sunday, May 11, 2008
waiting for the stupid cough meds to kick in...
wrote this tonight...
i could use a pick me up...i think that this would help a lot...but the alcohol just isn't working...and the cigarettes are only hurting...what is your escape of choice...tell me now, use your voice...Does whiskey suit you oh my dear or will you choose cocaine?...Please baby bring the sun back because today just feels like rain...Follow you it's just my luck...you think that I won't f**k this up...surprise, surprise I'll fail you soon...with a girl like me we're bound for doom...So will this suit you oh my sweet? can you stand the pain?...Pray for June and look around for those who'll take this blame...I could be your pick me up...not that it would help a lot...but the warn bourbon is watered down...we could just up and leave this town...tell me love is it true...there will be none after you?...Tell me who suits you oh my dear and I will try my best...to be exactly what you need you've ripped my heart right from my chest...We could run far from this place and look for others to fill our space. Tell me what you think I'd hear and I'll be your disgrace.
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waiting for the stupid cough meds to kick in...
wrote this tonight...
i could use a pick me up...i think that this would help a lot...but the alcohol just isn't working...and the cigarettes are only hurting...what is your escape of choice...tell me now, use your voice...Does whiskey suit you oh my dear or will you choose cocaine?...Please baby bring the sun back because today just feels like rain...Follow you it's just my luck...you think that I won't f**k this up...surprise, surprise I'll fail you soon...with a girl like me we're bound for doom...So will this suit you oh my sweet? can you stand the pain?...Pray for June and look around for those who'll take this blame...I could be your pick me up...not that it would help a lot...but the warn bourbon is watered down...we could just up and leave this town...tell me love is it true...there will be none after you?...Tell me who suits you oh my dear and I will try my best...to be exactly what you need you've ripped my heart right from my chest...We could run far from this place and look for others to fill our space. Tell me what you think I'd hear and I'll be your disgrace.
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Sunday May 25, 2008
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Sunday, May 25, 2008
bored on a sunday afternoon.
Does the last person you shared a bed/couch with mean anything to you?
they mean much to me.
Are you dating the last person you kissed?
nope
Can you handle the truth?
hells to the yeah i can...
If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
crystal cove...playing in the surf, waiting for the sun to set.
Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
not die...not have a penis...yep, and I guess for some guys that would be like dying?
Would you rather have loved and lost, or never have loved at all?
i reject your choices and choose my own! I choose C, vanilla
Have you ever streaked across a football field?
nope...i have streaked across a dressing room in the old theatre...
Your most recent ex says he/she hates you, you say:
i would say ummm, ok.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
i've been trying to get better at this.
Who do you trust the most in your life?
3 people...they know who they are.
Who has hurt you the most?
hmmm, that's a good question...if you know me well enough you know the answer to this question.
Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
lips of an angel...I HATE that song.
Are you happy with where you are relationship wise now?
yeah, I'm fine with it for the time being.
How long ago did you hug someone?
umm, it's been about 13 hours since my last hug. It was a good one and will hold me over for awhile.
Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
a tie.
Do you find it easier to forgive or forget?
maim...that's easier.
Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
i have yet to be high.
What gets you happy?
making up rules and eye chicken.
Who was the last person you yelled at?
umm, i don't remember. Probably my mom
Do you know anyone who's addicted to any drugs?
yep...i also know quite a few people who are addicted to LOVE (rrrrowggg)
Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
i always try to fall asleep with a smile or at least a smirk on my face...it keeps robbers wondering what the hells going on in your brain while they're stealing all your shiz.
Where did you sleep last night?
in the big bed...i love being home alone:)
Did you have a good day yesterday?
yeah it was really relaxing and good to just be.
What was the highlight of today?
everyone coming over to my house for laundry party and maybe shopping at owens for the BBQ tomorrow.
Do you hate anyone?
i strongly dislike a few...
Do you have a best friend?
3...
Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
yeah...but only when i was really really sick.
Put iTunes on shuffle, what is the third song that comes up?
Saturday Morning by the Eels.
When was the last time you bought something?
i bought myself a few drinks last night...
Have you ever told someone you love them?
yesh...
Do you play an instrument?
i play many...do i play them well? I play most marginally mediocre.
What's the reason behind your myspace display name?
toughie...my mom's best friend's name was Karen my parents spelled my name all weird and it's been my name for over 23 years...i guess you could say that's the reason?
In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
concerts, moving, new job:)
Have you ever got naked at a party?
better question, have you ever used proper grammar?
Does a kiss make you feel better when you're angry?
probably not. maybe if I'm not angry at that person and it was a kiss on the cheek normally when I'm angry enough that everyone knows about it...I'm crying.
Is your phone within a meter radius of you?
by my ankle.
What are you wearing?
the top that dean and steve got me last summer and some shorts I've had since 6th grade... yeah, they still fit.
What color is the thing you are sitting on right now?
the color of a tree.
Are you doing this just because you're bored?
yeah and because nadine is working on pictures on the other computer.
What is bothering you right now?
nothing's really bothering me...my back and shoulders are a little sore.
Was last New Year's enjoyable?
not really...wait, let me recap...yeah, nope not really.
I'll bet you miss someone right now?
what? you don't know me.
Are you high?
on life and the delicious vegetarian pasta i made earlier.
Do you shop for clothes?
who doesn't?
Where do you think your best friend is right now?
packing and spending time with his girlfriend, hanging with nells, and sitting about 8 feet from me in a computer chair.
Who else is in the room with you right now?
no one is in the dining room with me, nadine is at the breakfast nook.
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
not really I'm cool with this spot.
How often do you get onto myspace/facebook?
on average twice a day.
Do you have any enemies?
algebra, tipping, and flying squirrels
Ever fall in a hole?
yeah.
What last made you sad?
having to leave Doug...oh doug...soooooo pretty.
Who was the last person you were under the covers with?
haha, ummm...nadine and jenell...how dirtay.
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
on friday, multiple times.
Do you ever keep arguing when you know you're wrong?
hahaha, well that's not possible I'm never wrong.
What does your second text say?
it's a picture of a dead 3.5 foot copperhead and my brothers holding it...family camping trip is awesome apparently.
What are you listening to?
the washer and dryer and the flag flapping in the breeze...it's very quiet in the house right now.
What's one word to describe you?
Nadine has made up a word...here it is... asstrotastically-pleasing (hyphenated so it counts)
What are your plans for this weekend?
well I had many plans this weekend, finish my book, find a place to live, have fun, drink drinks, chill out, be pretty, go out to dinner with nells, hang out with steve, chill with nadine and have a cook-out.
What makes you laugh?
nadine making up words and telling me I'm not a nice person oh and silly hugs.
Get asked anything ridiculous lately?
i believe being asked to lay on the ground last night with J-nell so random boys could take a picture of us was pretty ridiculous.
What are you doing tomorrow?
relaxing, packing and secret covert plans.
Do people tell you your pretty?
yes, but then people look at you and say... "whoa are you hung over??" when you are not and that just kind of ruins things for you.
How is your hair?
right now? air dryed and curly.
As of today, do you like anyone?
not anymore than i did yesterday not anymore than i will tomorrow.
Have you kissed anyone in the last 7 hours?
nope.
Have you ever been awake for 48 hours?
oh yes...it's called my senior year of highschool when i think i may have slept a total of 48 hours the entire 2nd semester.
Do you like your first name?
it's not horrible.
Do you like to cuddle?
sometimes especially if that sometimes involved any kind of alcoholic substance.
What are your initials?
KBAMFB
Married?
Peaches? we were supposed to just pick out a word and put a question mark next to it right?
Who do you text the most?
nadine or the master of the universe
What's your biggest fear?
being in a tornado with a car full of rabid squirrels alone.
Been to Europe or the Caribbean?
yep, that's a really random question.
Last person you talked to over AIM or MSN?
josh fricke...but that was like...5 months ago.
Do you like the color gray?
on a shirt to accentuate my sweaty pits...but that's basically the only context.
Look outside, how's the weather?
warm with a slight breeze coming out of the west and cloudy.
Are you jealous of anyone right now?
nope.
Did you ever think someone didn't like you, but came to find out
they really did?
haha, yeah.
Last time you ate grilled cheese?
oh man...a few months ago when i worked at RW we didn't have anything for dinner so I made everyone grilled cheese and tomato soup. tasty treats.
How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried in front of?
i could count them on less than one hand.
Describe your last relationship:
well, I am having a pretty crazy love affair with this farfalle pasta dish i made...although I'm seriously considering cheating on it with an ice-cream cake from the DQ...decisions decisions.
How about current relationship?
me and the ice cream cake will be very happy with one another I'm sure. Until he becomes a piece of shit at which point in time i will dump him and move on.
Who did you last speak to on the phone, what did they say?
my dad, "bryan just killed a 3.5 foot long copperhead and mom touched it!"
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Sunday, May 25, 2008
bored on a sunday afternoon.
Does the last person you shared a bed/couch with mean anything to you?
they mean much to me.
Are you dating the last person you kissed?
nope
Can you handle the truth?
hells to the yeah i can...
If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
crystal cove...playing in the surf, waiting for the sun to set.
Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
not die...not have a penis...yep, and I guess for some guys that would be like dying?
Would you rather have loved and lost, or never have loved at all?
i reject your choices and choose my own! I choose C, vanilla
Have you ever streaked across a football field?
nope...i have streaked across a dressing room in the old theatre...
Your most recent ex says he/she hates you, you say:
i would say ummm, ok.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
i've been trying to get better at this.
Who do you trust the most in your life?
3 people...they know who they are.
Who has hurt you the most?
hmmm, that's a good question...if you know me well enough you know the answer to this question.
Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
lips of an angel...I HATE that song.
Are you happy with where you are relationship wise now?
yeah, I'm fine with it for the time being.
How long ago did you hug someone?
umm, it's been about 13 hours since my last hug. It was a good one and will hold me over for awhile.
Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
a tie.
Do you find it easier to forgive or forget?
maim...that's easier.
Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
i have yet to be high.
What gets you happy?
making up rules and eye chicken.
Who was the last person you yelled at?
umm, i don't remember. Probably my mom
Do you know anyone who's addicted to any drugs?
yep...i also know quite a few people who are addicted to LOVE (rrrrowggg)
Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
i always try to fall asleep with a smile or at least a smirk on my face...it keeps robbers wondering what the hells going on in your brain while they're stealing all your shiz.
Where did you sleep last night?
in the big bed...i love being home alone:)
Did you have a good day yesterday?
yeah it was really relaxing and good to just be.
What was the highlight of today?
everyone coming over to my house for laundry party and maybe shopping at owens for the BBQ tomorrow.
Do you hate anyone?
i strongly dislike a few...
Do you have a best friend?
3...
Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
yeah...but only when i was really really sick.
Put iTunes on shuffle, what is the third song that comes up?
Saturday Morning by the Eels.
When was the last time you bought something?
i bought myself a few drinks last night...
Have you ever told someone you love them?
yesh...
Do you play an instrument?
i play many...do i play them well? I play most marginally mediocre.
What's the reason behind your myspace display name?
toughie...my mom's best friend's name was Karen my parents spelled my name all weird and it's been my name for over 23 years...i guess you could say that's the reason?
In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
concerts, moving, new job:)
Have you ever got naked at a party?
better question, have you ever used proper grammar?
Does a kiss make you feel better when you're angry?
probably not. maybe if I'm not angry at that person and it was a kiss on the cheek normally when I'm angry enough that everyone knows about it...I'm crying.
Is your phone within a meter radius of you?
by my ankle.
What are you wearing?
the top that dean and steve got me last summer and some shorts I've had since 6th grade... yeah, they still fit.
What color is the thing you are sitting on right now?
the color of a tree.
Are you doing this just because you're bored?
yeah and because nadine is working on pictures on the other computer.
What is bothering you right now?
nothing's really bothering me...my back and shoulders are a little sore.
Was last New Year's enjoyable?
not really...wait, let me recap...yeah, nope not really.
I'll bet you miss someone right now?
what? you don't know me.
Are you high?
on life and the delicious vegetarian pasta i made earlier.
Do you shop for clothes?
who doesn't?
Where do you think your best friend is right now?
packing and spending time with his girlfriend, hanging with nells, and sitting about 8 feet from me in a computer chair.
Who else is in the room with you right now?
no one is in the dining room with me, nadine is at the breakfast nook.
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
not really I'm cool with this spot.
How often do you get onto myspace/facebook?
on average twice a day.
Do you have any enemies?
algebra, tipping, and flying squirrels
Ever fall in a hole?
yeah.
What last made you sad?
having to leave Doug...oh doug...soooooo pretty.
Who was the last person you were under the covers with?
haha, ummm...nadine and jenell...how dirtay.
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
on friday, multiple times.
Do you ever keep arguing when you know you're wrong?
hahaha, well that's not possible I'm never wrong.
What does your second text say?
it's a picture of a dead 3.5 foot copperhead and my brothers holding it...family camping trip is awesome apparently.
What are you listening to?
the washer and dryer and the flag flapping in the breeze...it's very quiet in the house right now.
What's one word to describe you?
Nadine has made up a word...here it is... asstrotastically-pleasing (hyphenated so it counts)
What are your plans for this weekend?
well I had many plans this weekend, finish my book, find a place to live, have fun, drink drinks, chill out, be pretty, go out to dinner with nells, hang out with steve, chill with nadine and have a cook-out.
What makes you laugh?
nadine making up words and telling me I'm not a nice person oh and silly hugs.
Get asked anything ridiculous lately?
i believe being asked to lay on the ground last night with J-nell so random boys could take a picture of us was pretty ridiculous.
What are you doing tomorrow?
relaxing, packing and secret covert plans.
Do people tell you your pretty?
yes, but then people look at you and say... "whoa are you hung over??" when you are not and that just kind of ruins things for you.
How is your hair?
right now? air dryed and curly.
As of today, do you like anyone?
not anymore than i did yesterday not anymore than i will tomorrow.
Have you kissed anyone in the last 7 hours?
nope.
Have you ever been awake for 48 hours?
oh yes...it's called my senior year of highschool when i think i may have slept a total of 48 hours the entire 2nd semester.
Do you like your first name?
it's not horrible.
Do you like to cuddle?
sometimes especially if that sometimes involved any kind of alcoholic substance.
What are your initials?
KBAMFB
Married?
Peaches? we were supposed to just pick out a word and put a question mark next to it right?
Who do you text the most?
nadine or the master of the universe
What's your biggest fear?
being in a tornado with a car full of rabid squirrels alone.
Been to Europe or the Caribbean?
yep, that's a really random question.
Last person you talked to over AIM or MSN?
josh fricke...but that was like...5 months ago.
Do you like the color gray?
on a shirt to accentuate my sweaty pits...but that's basically the only context.
Look outside, how's the weather?
warm with a slight breeze coming out of the west and cloudy.
Are you jealous of anyone right now?
nope.
Did you ever think someone didn't like you, but came to find out
they really did?
haha, yeah.
Last time you ate grilled cheese?
oh man...a few months ago when i worked at RW we didn't have anything for dinner so I made everyone grilled cheese and tomato soup. tasty treats.
How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried in front of?
i could count them on less than one hand.
Describe your last relationship:
well, I am having a pretty crazy love affair with this farfalle pasta dish i made...although I'm seriously considering cheating on it with an ice-cream cake from the DQ...decisions decisions.
How about current relationship?
me and the ice cream cake will be very happy with one another I'm sure. Until he becomes a piece of shit at which point in time i will dump him and move on.
Who did you last speak to on the phone, what did they say?
my dad, "bryan just killed a 3.5 foot long copperhead and mom touched it!"
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Jun 24, 2008
so...everyone who has spent more than ...15 minutes with me knows that i a) love a nice cold mountain dew b) love the west coast more than any other place in the world and c) i am completely involved in a world of music...tonight I decided to pass along 2 reviews for you myspace people. I've been listening to an exceptional amount of new music the last few days and I just need an outlet for the thoughts that have been filling my brain... first to be reviewed... Viva la Vida by Coldplay
Now, I have to say that when I saw all these commercial for the new cd I was rather bummed thinking...wow, could we sell out a little more and the whole Sa-WEET dance moves of the Chris Martin, I mean those moves alone made me want to own the album. I purchased the album for my brother and I have become rather intrigued. I can't put my finger on it... It's like a weird mix of Heathen Chemistry (Oasis), Chase This Light (jimmy eat world), and anything by The Album Leaf, and Sigur Ros (ambient stuff), there's some eastern inflluences that I absolutely LOVE and then a random feeling of "wait..didn't Rich Mullins have this intro in Sometimes by step??" [read on to see what i'm talking about]. I feel like it's a LOT different than Cold Rush of Blood to the Head there are some similarities between this album and X&Y but overall it's like Coldplay reinvented themselves. Most every review I've read of the album suggests that you listen to it more than twice...which is true. I've listened to the entire album about 4 times since I bought it Saturday and today is the first time I thought... "wow, this album is great..." I'm sure you think...but great albums hit you on the first listen... i say NAY...what about Dark side of the moon?? I had to listen to that more than once to truly appreciate it. Maybe I'm just dense...who knows. Here's a break down of the cd...
1. Life in Technicolor... Ok remember when I said the whole album leaf/sigur ros thing?? This is where that comes into play. You listen to this song and think... ummm Coldplay?? Huh?? Chris Martin really makes Coldplay songs what they are with his lyrics and since this is all instrumental it's a bit unfamiliar to coldplay fans.
2. Cemeteries of London... One of my favorites from this album. It begins with a rather haunting melody (which continues throughout the song) but then picks up during the second chorus and you feel like sharply dressed gentlemen should be riding on horses while this song is playing.
3.Lost!... love the beat of this song. i listened to this song on my walk tonight and thought of how B.A. this song would be played in the winter when you're all bundled up and you're walking through the city streets with people passing you and you're down on your luck...THIS would be the song that plays right after your girlfriend breaks up with you, you lose your job, your apartment burns down and you hit the streets because you've got nothing but this is the song that plays right before your luck changes... (this is TRULY coldplay)
4. 42...oh dear...these lyrics...what to say... the song starts with "those who are dead are not dead they're just living in my head and since I fell for that spell i am living there as well..." who hasn't felt like this??? Starts deliciously painful and then in the middle breaks into this beat and distorted guitar (still painful) then it's like hey...dance party... it's a very...contrasting song.
5. Lovers in Japan/Reign of Love... ok, here's where they totally ripped off Rich Mullins! The intro to this song is humorous (to those of you who know what song I'm talking about you will laugh and surely agree)...but this is a great uplifting song.
6.Yes... now EVERYONE seems to be loving up on this song. It is pretty great I will say that. The beat and the ambient strings are haunting (i know I'm saying that a lot but that's the vibe here...haunting...) The vocals are a LOT lower than the whole normal high tenor we're used to getting out of Chris Martin. The lyrics in this song are amazing though. There is one person in my life who should make this their theme song right now. Another fantastic lyrical masterpiece.
7. Viva la Vida... I'm totally not reviewing this song...suck it.
8. Violet Hill...beautiful. Absolutely gorgeous...my second favorite song on the album (only by a little though)... Apparently this was their unoffical first single? While Viva la Vida did really catch my attention and was the one that Itunes first released... i also saw this played a few times (the one where they're in the dessert? and they're playing drums?? don't worry i was confused too...) The music and the lyrics in this song are a perfect marriage but at the same time they sound a LOT like oasis in this song...i mean...a LOT.
9. Strawberry Swing...begins with distant clapping and a very eastern sounding solo. It's cool because it sounds like they just recorded it in like a storage unit. A very unique sounding song... it sounds like this should be played to an old school video montage of family memories.
10. Death and all his friends. What a perfect way to end this cd. It's a beautiful Coldplay ballad and it wraps up with Life in Technicolor at the end...
Overall it's a brilliantly mastered cd. I would recommend finding someone with the cd to borrow it, listen to it a few times, and you'll be hooked. I promise. While I feel as though they did branch out into a "new" sound for them I think it was a great step in a good direction. I give this 4 out of 5 stars. (for those who don't understand the star scale system...on a scale of 1-fantastic...i give it a super great)
This next review is not so much a review as...a general informational narrative about some artists that were new to me...I would review them...but it's almost 2am. I need sleeps.
I learned tonight that Canada has an AMAZING array of Blues players... my initial reaction to this was "....[confused pause...] what the hell??..." but after enjoying most of the artists i heard i said... alright then canada you have earned some of my respect...ESPECIALLY Samuel James and Paul Reddick & the sidemen. If you like blues you will LOVE both of these guys. Samuel James is a fabulous musician and a master at the slide guitar. Paul Reddick assembled the sidemen in Toronto back in '99 and while he has a few solo albums I believe his best work is done with the sidemen. Sadly Paul Reddick doesn't have a myspace and if you look up Samuel James you won't find him under that name... if you'd really like to hear him check out my new myspace song I should have it up for awhile.
There you have it...my mind is cleared and you have been informed.
-k.
Now, I have to say that when I saw all these commercial for the new cd I was rather bummed thinking...wow, could we sell out a little more and the whole Sa-WEET dance moves of the Chris Martin, I mean those moves alone made me want to own the album. I purchased the album for my brother and I have become rather intrigued. I can't put my finger on it... It's like a weird mix of Heathen Chemistry (Oasis), Chase This Light (jimmy eat world), and anything by The Album Leaf, and Sigur Ros (ambient stuff), there's some eastern inflluences that I absolutely LOVE and then a random feeling of "wait..didn't Rich Mullins have this intro in Sometimes by step??" [read on to see what i'm talking about]. I feel like it's a LOT different than Cold Rush of Blood to the Head there are some similarities between this album and X&Y but overall it's like Coldplay reinvented themselves. Most every review I've read of the album suggests that you listen to it more than twice...which is true. I've listened to the entire album about 4 times since I bought it Saturday and today is the first time I thought... "wow, this album is great..." I'm sure you think...but great albums hit you on the first listen... i say NAY...what about Dark side of the moon?? I had to listen to that more than once to truly appreciate it. Maybe I'm just dense...who knows. Here's a break down of the cd...
1. Life in Technicolor... Ok remember when I said the whole album leaf/sigur ros thing?? This is where that comes into play. You listen to this song and think... ummm Coldplay?? Huh?? Chris Martin really makes Coldplay songs what they are with his lyrics and since this is all instrumental it's a bit unfamiliar to coldplay fans.
2. Cemeteries of London... One of my favorites from this album. It begins with a rather haunting melody (which continues throughout the song) but then picks up during the second chorus and you feel like sharply dressed gentlemen should be riding on horses while this song is playing.
3.Lost!... love the beat of this song. i listened to this song on my walk tonight and thought of how B.A. this song would be played in the winter when you're all bundled up and you're walking through the city streets with people passing you and you're down on your luck...THIS would be the song that plays right after your girlfriend breaks up with you, you lose your job, your apartment burns down and you hit the streets because you've got nothing but this is the song that plays right before your luck changes... (this is TRULY coldplay)
4. 42...oh dear...these lyrics...what to say... the song starts with "those who are dead are not dead they're just living in my head and since I fell for that spell i am living there as well..." who hasn't felt like this??? Starts deliciously painful and then in the middle breaks into this beat and distorted guitar (still painful) then it's like hey...dance party... it's a very...contrasting song.
5. Lovers in Japan/Reign of Love... ok, here's where they totally ripped off Rich Mullins! The intro to this song is humorous (to those of you who know what song I'm talking about you will laugh and surely agree)...but this is a great uplifting song.
6.Yes... now EVERYONE seems to be loving up on this song. It is pretty great I will say that. The beat and the ambient strings are haunting (i know I'm saying that a lot but that's the vibe here...haunting...) The vocals are a LOT lower than the whole normal high tenor we're used to getting out of Chris Martin. The lyrics in this song are amazing though. There is one person in my life who should make this their theme song right now. Another fantastic lyrical masterpiece.
7. Viva la Vida... I'm totally not reviewing this song...suck it.
8. Violet Hill...beautiful. Absolutely gorgeous...my second favorite song on the album (only by a little though)... Apparently this was their unoffical first single? While Viva la Vida did really catch my attention and was the one that Itunes first released... i also saw this played a few times (the one where they're in the dessert? and they're playing drums?? don't worry i was confused too...) The music and the lyrics in this song are a perfect marriage but at the same time they sound a LOT like oasis in this song...i mean...a LOT.
9. Strawberry Swing...begins with distant clapping and a very eastern sounding solo. It's cool because it sounds like they just recorded it in like a storage unit. A very unique sounding song... it sounds like this should be played to an old school video montage of family memories.
10. Death and all his friends. What a perfect way to end this cd. It's a beautiful Coldplay ballad and it wraps up with Life in Technicolor at the end...
Overall it's a brilliantly mastered cd. I would recommend finding someone with the cd to borrow it, listen to it a few times, and you'll be hooked. I promise. While I feel as though they did branch out into a "new" sound for them I think it was a great step in a good direction. I give this 4 out of 5 stars. (for those who don't understand the star scale system...on a scale of 1-fantastic...i give it a super great)
This next review is not so much a review as...a general informational narrative about some artists that were new to me...I would review them...but it's almost 2am. I need sleeps.
I learned tonight that Canada has an AMAZING array of Blues players... my initial reaction to this was "....[confused pause...] what the hell??..." but after enjoying most of the artists i heard i said... alright then canada you have earned some of my respect...ESPECIALLY Samuel James and Paul Reddick & the sidemen. If you like blues you will LOVE both of these guys. Samuel James is a fabulous musician and a master at the slide guitar. Paul Reddick assembled the sidemen in Toronto back in '99 and while he has a few solo albums I believe his best work is done with the sidemen. Sadly Paul Reddick doesn't have a myspace and if you look up Samuel James you won't find him under that name... if you'd really like to hear him check out my new myspace song I should have it up for awhile.
There you have it...my mind is cleared and you have been informed.
-k.
Sept 17, 2008
it was truly unbelievable and i try hard not to care but i guess that it's inevitable and i'm left standing there. With questions unanswered and hard lines to be drawn and loneliness left calling is my only friend when you are gone. This is inescapable this place you've left for me. A quiet empty house will keep me company. Memories, half truths, and lies you never did take with you. And what you've left for me here are the only things I find true. Do you feel better my sweet friend now that you've gone away? Is that bitterness any easeir to swallow than it was just yesterday? Does blaming me help free you from the blame you owe yourself? Or have you forgotten all you've said and placed it on a shelf... To go through a time much later than to face those things right now. I want to change the things I've been but i just can't figure out how. So pack up this house and lock me in with all the things you wish we'd been. Cause one day you'll look back and that's all that you will have my friend.
Sept 22nd, 2008
I was thinking tonight about constants...
Ya know, the things that never seem to change no matter what. With a world that seems to be constantly changing and evolving and me as a person constantly changing some things and evolving and adapting...I wonder how some things stay so constant. I think about the seasons how I know that I can live in Indiana and that I am guaranteed to have 4 seasons. They may come at awkward times or be super long or super short but eventually the leaves change and the snow comes and winter seems to last forever and then spring comes and then WHAM summer and it feels like it's hotter than vietnam and then you start the process over. There's the smell of my grandparents house. It's never changed in 23 years of visiting them I know exactly what that smell is and it's in every fiber of that house. Grandma's corn smells like her house, Grandma's cookies smell like her house, Grandpa's gun cabinet smells like their house and that smell brings nothing but comfort to me. The other constant for me is the pumpkin jar. The pumpkin jar is set out every fall around this time. I came home today and there it sat on the ledge between the living room and the kitchen just waiting for me and i walked up to it and reached inside and it was empty. I was perplexed like, "why am I doing this???" I realized that constant had somehow triggered this Pavlovian response in me and I was looking for candy corn. I can only eat like 2 pieces of candy corn and I'm like...gross, I hate this stuff why am I eating it???!!! But, this didn't seem to matter to me. I still reached in to get a piece of candy corn and it wasn't there. I returned home tonight and walked by that pumpkin and sure enough...it had been filled with disgusting candy corn and i grabbed a piece and talked to my dad. While chomping on that compact bit of sugar discussing football with my dad i realized what a creature of habit I've become.
I do things because they seem like the safe thing to do. They seem like the "smart" thing to do and I've always done them so why should i question my methods they haven't killed me yet and then i began to think, but is this best?? I've often been known to wrestle with the question of is this good or is this best and many times I choose what's good because what's best is hard or terrifying or both... Why is it that i get lost in the constants? Why is it that I, have programmed myself into this pattern of self-destruction? This pattern of good over best. What's convinient over what is prudent? I sit and i wrestle with one hand in the pumpkin jar...
Ya know, the things that never seem to change no matter what. With a world that seems to be constantly changing and evolving and me as a person constantly changing some things and evolving and adapting...I wonder how some things stay so constant. I think about the seasons how I know that I can live in Indiana and that I am guaranteed to have 4 seasons. They may come at awkward times or be super long or super short but eventually the leaves change and the snow comes and winter seems to last forever and then spring comes and then WHAM summer and it feels like it's hotter than vietnam and then you start the process over. There's the smell of my grandparents house. It's never changed in 23 years of visiting them I know exactly what that smell is and it's in every fiber of that house. Grandma's corn smells like her house, Grandma's cookies smell like her house, Grandpa's gun cabinet smells like their house and that smell brings nothing but comfort to me. The other constant for me is the pumpkin jar. The pumpkin jar is set out every fall around this time. I came home today and there it sat on the ledge between the living room and the kitchen just waiting for me and i walked up to it and reached inside and it was empty. I was perplexed like, "why am I doing this???" I realized that constant had somehow triggered this Pavlovian response in me and I was looking for candy corn. I can only eat like 2 pieces of candy corn and I'm like...gross, I hate this stuff why am I eating it???!!! But, this didn't seem to matter to me. I still reached in to get a piece of candy corn and it wasn't there. I returned home tonight and walked by that pumpkin and sure enough...it had been filled with disgusting candy corn and i grabbed a piece and talked to my dad. While chomping on that compact bit of sugar discussing football with my dad i realized what a creature of habit I've become.
I do things because they seem like the safe thing to do. They seem like the "smart" thing to do and I've always done them so why should i question my methods they haven't killed me yet and then i began to think, but is this best?? I've often been known to wrestle with the question of is this good or is this best and many times I choose what's good because what's best is hard or terrifying or both... Why is it that i get lost in the constants? Why is it that I, have programmed myself into this pattern of self-destruction? This pattern of good over best. What's convinient over what is prudent? I sit and i wrestle with one hand in the pumpkin jar...
October 22, 2008
There are times in my life...I feel like the lighthouse keeper. I got to visit an old lighthouse today and there's something about lighthouses that gives me the creeps...I don't know what it is. Something about stepping into the past...maybe feeling the loneliness that I'm sure lighthouse keepers felt...and today it struck me how helpless you'd be as a lighthouse keeper. I mean you tend to the light and you're especially attentive and aware on stormy or foggy nights. Your job is to keep that light running for ships and sailors and adventurers.
I happened to run across the list of ship wrecks by that lighthouse while the lighthouse was in working condition (meaning the lighthouse was functioning when those wrecks happened). I could only imagine the lighthouse keeper sitting high up in the lighthouse seeing the ship, blowing that obnoxiously loud fog horn and making sure that light was shining out onto the water as the rough waves threw the helpless ships and passengers into the unseen...and all the lighthouse keeper could do was know and watch. I can imagine them shouting from atop their towers, furious cries of warning behind the glass, before the light, drowned out by the fog horn and the howling wind.
I am like that lighthouse keeper. I know what's ahead and I can see where the storms going to throw those ships and all I can do is yell and keep that light going hoping and praying that they make it out alive. It's not that I don't want to be involved...It's that my involvement can only come at a distance because despite my strength and my heart I know my job is to tend the light and that I only can not jump into the water and save the ship because if I did that I too would perish.
Somedays you're the captain and somedays you're the lighthouse keeper.
-k.
I happened to run across the list of ship wrecks by that lighthouse while the lighthouse was in working condition (meaning the lighthouse was functioning when those wrecks happened). I could only imagine the lighthouse keeper sitting high up in the lighthouse seeing the ship, blowing that obnoxiously loud fog horn and making sure that light was shining out onto the water as the rough waves threw the helpless ships and passengers into the unseen...and all the lighthouse keeper could do was know and watch. I can imagine them shouting from atop their towers, furious cries of warning behind the glass, before the light, drowned out by the fog horn and the howling wind.
I am like that lighthouse keeper. I know what's ahead and I can see where the storms going to throw those ships and all I can do is yell and keep that light going hoping and praying that they make it out alive. It's not that I don't want to be involved...It's that my involvement can only come at a distance because despite my strength and my heart I know my job is to tend the light and that I only can not jump into the water and save the ship because if I did that I too would perish.
Somedays you're the captain and somedays you're the lighthouse keeper.
-k.
November 15, 2008
Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
Who wouldn't be mad if they couldn't have these lips on the daily...hellllooooo
How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
they are a superb human being whom i would gladly describe as the moose of my life.
Do you like anyone right now?
i looked in the mirror the other day and had to remind myself it was me to keep me from asking myself out...i did it anyway...still waiting to see how this little romance will turn out. Oh me...you're so fantastic.
What are you looking forward to?
sleeping...tomorrow...thanksgiving...christmas...my birthday...so many things.
Do you think you are an argumentative person?
no, most of the time i don't see the benefit. and if i do feel like arguing i win most of the time because i hurt people with my words.
Will this weekend be a good one?
besides work on Sunday this weekend should be a dandy...it's already been lovely thus far.
Who was the last person that made you cry, why?
the doctor? cause he likes to tell me unsettling things...
Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
a beagle...i reject your choices and choose mine own.
Have you ever had a difficult relationship?
i believe i called that one a relation-shit (thanks dane cook)
Ever driven into the ghetto to buy drugs?
i have driven into the ghetto but never to buy drugs.
Can you read other people's expressions?
most of the time and when i can't it scares me a little.
When was the last time something really bothered you?
yesterday.
Have you ever stayed in a hotel?
better question ever stayed in a hotel that caught fire while you were in it and the fire department didn't bother to get you out?? and the answer to that question is thanks dad.
What's the last movie in theatres you saw?
Saw 32... aw-ful
Have you ever dated someone who was not good to you?
i've not always had the best judgement...thanks.
Have you ever loved someone without ever meeting them?
Jesus, Santa, Beast from Beauty and the..., and that scary dude from Rigaletto...3,000 bonus points if you know who I'm talking about.
How did you feel when you woke up today?
confused.
Was yesterday better than today?
nope
What time did you go to sleep last night?
4:00am
What is in your pocket?
nothing...wait...just checked...cell phone.
When is your birthday?
the day before aaron's
Where/When did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
old navy.
What color are your eyes?
blue and green and gray and paisley...(threw that one in there...)
How tall are you?
5'4"
What's your favorite TV show?
The Office
How's your heart lately?
doing it's job.
The last song you listened to?
(sitting on the) dock of the bay
Sara Bariellis. If you haven't bought this song yet...do it right now.
Are you a forgiving person?
i forgive because I'm forgiven.
Have you ever been around someone who was high?
so.many.things.to.say.
Ever kissed someone who smokes?
but of course.
When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
most always yes.
Who wouldn't be mad if they couldn't have these lips on the daily...hellllooooo
How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
they are a superb human being whom i would gladly describe as the moose of my life.
Do you like anyone right now?
i looked in the mirror the other day and had to remind myself it was me to keep me from asking myself out...i did it anyway...still waiting to see how this little romance will turn out. Oh me...you're so fantastic.
What are you looking forward to?
sleeping...tomorrow...thanksgiving...christmas...my birthday...so many things.
Do you think you are an argumentative person?
no, most of the time i don't see the benefit. and if i do feel like arguing i win most of the time because i hurt people with my words.
Will this weekend be a good one?
besides work on Sunday this weekend should be a dandy...it's already been lovely thus far.
Who was the last person that made you cry, why?
the doctor? cause he likes to tell me unsettling things...
Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
a beagle...i reject your choices and choose mine own.
Have you ever had a difficult relationship?
i believe i called that one a relation-shit (thanks dane cook)
Ever driven into the ghetto to buy drugs?
i have driven into the ghetto but never to buy drugs.
Can you read other people's expressions?
most of the time and when i can't it scares me a little.
When was the last time something really bothered you?
yesterday.
Have you ever stayed in a hotel?
better question ever stayed in a hotel that caught fire while you were in it and the fire department didn't bother to get you out?? and the answer to that question is thanks dad.
What's the last movie in theatres you saw?
Saw 32... aw-ful
Have you ever dated someone who was not good to you?
i've not always had the best judgement...thanks.
Have you ever loved someone without ever meeting them?
Jesus, Santa, Beast from Beauty and the..., and that scary dude from Rigaletto...3,000 bonus points if you know who I'm talking about.
How did you feel when you woke up today?
confused.
Was yesterday better than today?
nope
What time did you go to sleep last night?
4:00am
What is in your pocket?
nothing...wait...just checked...cell phone.
When is your birthday?
the day before aaron's
Where/When did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
old navy.
What color are your eyes?
blue and green and gray and paisley...(threw that one in there...)
How tall are you?
5'4"
What's your favorite TV show?
The Office
How's your heart lately?
doing it's job.
The last song you listened to?
(sitting on the) dock of the bay
Sara Bariellis. If you haven't bought this song yet...do it right now.
Are you a forgiving person?
i forgive because I'm forgiven.
Have you ever been around someone who was high?
so.many.things.to.say.
Ever kissed someone who smokes?
but of course.
When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
most always yes.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
life is full of them...
changes that is. so many of them, that when I actually sit and think about them my head starts to spin. I always find that writing stuff down and I guess... "writing them "outloud" always helps to see where I've/we've been and where we're headed...
1. We bought the studio. I could just stop right there because that's insane. We left on our honeymoon and LOVED it in Santa Cruz so much so that we went back 3 TIMES in 5 days. We visited quite a few places and while many were gorgeous and quaint Santa Cruz had it all. We were close to the city, close to aaron and mel and close to an IKEA which I told Steve I could go home immediately and apply for a job there... We talked while we were in California about SERIOUSLY moving out there and both decided to pray about it. My prayers went like this "God, you know how long I've wanted to live in California, you know how long I've wanted to live close to Aaron and Mel, and you know how much Steve and I love it out here... so provide a way that's so clear we would know exactly where to go next..." Steve's went like this "God, I want to move to Santa Cruz so, make that happen..." So, after praying like that we decided to give our options which were... If we are offered to buy the studio in the next year...we will. If not we will save our money and move to California. The day we returned from our honeymoon Steve got a call from the former owner who asked if we might be interested in buying the studio from them. When I heard the new I promptly told my mother to stop praying us to Warsaw. It was SO clear we were to stay put. We LOVE being small business owners (I still think...wow, how weird) and we LOVE being able to work together creatively. I know many couples who say "I could NEVER do that" and quite honestly God really created us to work well with one another. Steve has MANY strengths that are my weaknesses and vice versa (Although, my husband is REALLY smart...) Along with owning the business comes many awesome things like re-branding, getting to work closely with Melinda on design stuff, getting to be involved with local bands, and getting to teach, one of my passions. We have built some great relationships with our students as well as our teachers and I look forward to all the new things that are happening.
2.Mission Point...We started attending mission point for the sole fact that Steve and I wanted to support Abe. After going the first Sunday both of us thought... well, we're in:). We love our family here and are SO looking forward to getting more involved. It is SUCH an awesome church and we've really been learning a lot and find ourselves growing more passionate about the lost, about our families, about growing as a couple, and growing closer to Christ. This was another reason we were so convinced that God wanted us here in Warsaw
3. Brokenness... It is no surprise to anyone who knows me that I am not a fan of church. For many reasons that are valid, I'm sure to most people. But after all that happened I had grown bitter. It was as if my wounds had healed but over the years scar tissue had built LAYERS UPON LAYERS over that wound. I found myself angry with anyone who had been involved with my situation, anyone who was now involved with anyone who had been involved in my situation, and felt like the whole thing had been handled incorrectly. God has really really been working on my heart. It hasn't been a HUGE experience that has changed me...perhaps is just maturity. I began to determine in my heart to meet with people who had not been personally involved but that I had shut out due to my own bitterness. I determined that I would LOVE the people who had hurt me and it was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I'm still in that process but God is teaching me a lot through opening myself back up. It hurts but in the end I'll be better for it.
4. Getting Healthy... I have a GREAT motivational husband. He really keeps me on my toes. He blesses me everyday with his constitution and fortitude and I am so proud of him. He started working out with a friend everyday and I decided to do that in solidarity with him but felt completely unmotivated to take better care of myself. HOWEVER, I went to the doctor a few weeks after he started his work out stuff and had to be weighed. I have always avoided scales as a general rule of being a heavy set lady. But could not. So I hit the scale and was blown away... HOW had a let myself go SO much... blah. So I've been working out hard everyday trying to get at least 2 cardio workouts in. I know it seems like a lot but since i don't get a ton of cardio work throughout the day it's a GREAT thing for me. Gotta get healthy for...other changes on the horizon (baby??? what??)
So that's about it. life is simple and uncomplicated and I couldn't be happier.
From our happy nest,
K
1. We bought the studio. I could just stop right there because that's insane. We left on our honeymoon and LOVED it in Santa Cruz so much so that we went back 3 TIMES in 5 days. We visited quite a few places and while many were gorgeous and quaint Santa Cruz had it all. We were close to the city, close to aaron and mel and close to an IKEA which I told Steve I could go home immediately and apply for a job there... We talked while we were in California about SERIOUSLY moving out there and both decided to pray about it. My prayers went like this "God, you know how long I've wanted to live in California, you know how long I've wanted to live close to Aaron and Mel, and you know how much Steve and I love it out here... so provide a way that's so clear we would know exactly where to go next..." Steve's went like this "God, I want to move to Santa Cruz so, make that happen..." So, after praying like that we decided to give our options which were... If we are offered to buy the studio in the next year...we will. If not we will save our money and move to California. The day we returned from our honeymoon Steve got a call from the former owner who asked if we might be interested in buying the studio from them. When I heard the new I promptly told my mother to stop praying us to Warsaw. It was SO clear we were to stay put. We LOVE being small business owners (I still think...wow, how weird) and we LOVE being able to work together creatively. I know many couples who say "I could NEVER do that" and quite honestly God really created us to work well with one another. Steve has MANY strengths that are my weaknesses and vice versa (Although, my husband is REALLY smart...) Along with owning the business comes many awesome things like re-branding, getting to work closely with Melinda on design stuff, getting to be involved with local bands, and getting to teach, one of my passions. We have built some great relationships with our students as well as our teachers and I look forward to all the new things that are happening.
2.Mission Point...We started attending mission point for the sole fact that Steve and I wanted to support Abe. After going the first Sunday both of us thought... well, we're in:). We love our family here and are SO looking forward to getting more involved. It is SUCH an awesome church and we've really been learning a lot and find ourselves growing more passionate about the lost, about our families, about growing as a couple, and growing closer to Christ. This was another reason we were so convinced that God wanted us here in Warsaw
3. Brokenness... It is no surprise to anyone who knows me that I am not a fan of church. For many reasons that are valid, I'm sure to most people. But after all that happened I had grown bitter. It was as if my wounds had healed but over the years scar tissue had built LAYERS UPON LAYERS over that wound. I found myself angry with anyone who had been involved with my situation, anyone who was now involved with anyone who had been involved in my situation, and felt like the whole thing had been handled incorrectly. God has really really been working on my heart. It hasn't been a HUGE experience that has changed me...perhaps is just maturity. I began to determine in my heart to meet with people who had not been personally involved but that I had shut out due to my own bitterness. I determined that I would LOVE the people who had hurt me and it was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I'm still in that process but God is teaching me a lot through opening myself back up. It hurts but in the end I'll be better for it.
4. Getting Healthy... I have a GREAT motivational husband. He really keeps me on my toes. He blesses me everyday with his constitution and fortitude and I am so proud of him. He started working out with a friend everyday and I decided to do that in solidarity with him but felt completely unmotivated to take better care of myself. HOWEVER, I went to the doctor a few weeks after he started his work out stuff and had to be weighed. I have always avoided scales as a general rule of being a heavy set lady. But could not. So I hit the scale and was blown away... HOW had a let myself go SO much... blah. So I've been working out hard everyday trying to get at least 2 cardio workouts in. I know it seems like a lot but since i don't get a ton of cardio work throughout the day it's a GREAT thing for me. Gotta get healthy for...other changes on the horizon (baby??? what??)
So that's about it. life is simple and uncomplicated and I couldn't be happier.
From our happy nest,
K
Monday, May 31, 2010
Headaches...
So, I've been getting headaches for the past 3 weeks...awful headaches. Now, I've been known to get migraines in the past but not so frequent and NOT this bad. So awful that I've been wanting to shave all my hair off. No Joke. Steve and I have tried many things but apart from being on some kind of pain medication 24/7 nothing seems to work. Grr. I've heard this can be a side effect of birth control but I think people who don't have migraines don't understand. I have to lay down and cover my face and have no noise at all around me or I throw up. What. Is. Up. Hopefully the vacation will help out with this too. Less than 5 days...ahhhhhhh.
Monday, May 24, 2010
My Husband...The King;)
Steve is an amazing guitar player. Not to brag (but remember I married him...I do really enjoy him) but he REALLY is... So naturally when Steve can he brings out his AWESOME guitar skills AND his pension for competition and he plays in the King of the Blues competition. Last Thursday we went up to fort wayne (in between lessons, setting up for Open Mic @ Bennis, and PLAYING open mic) so he could perform. He did a great job as usual and made it to the next round... which means he will be doing the store finals the day before we leave for our Honeymoon.
I am so proud of him. We are crazy crazy CRAZY busy right now and I can't tell you how much I am looking forward to getting out of town. We haven't been on a vacation in a year and it's about time. We're both just exhausted and want a little time to enjoy just being the two of us.
So, Steve will play Thursday the 3rd RIGHT before we leave. Should be pretty amazing. Come out and support him (and me cause I sit by myself) and we'll buy you a drink at Bennigans (which we'll have to play open mic at RIGHT afterwards;)
Ah Monday... the start of another busy week but one day closer to our amazing honeymoon. Can't wait.
I am so proud of him. We are crazy crazy CRAZY busy right now and I can't tell you how much I am looking forward to getting out of town. We haven't been on a vacation in a year and it's about time. We're both just exhausted and want a little time to enjoy just being the two of us.
So, Steve will play Thursday the 3rd RIGHT before we leave. Should be pretty amazing. Come out and support him (and me cause I sit by myself) and we'll buy you a drink at Bennigans (which we'll have to play open mic at RIGHT afterwards;)
Ah Monday... the start of another busy week but one day closer to our amazing honeymoon. Can't wait.
Monday, May 17, 2010
our weeks...
have gotten more and more busy...
Today I've been feeling awful. I've been dizzy, exhausted, hot, and nauseated. Thank goodness for Steve who brought me medicine, diet coke, and chocolates. We are REALLY looking forward to a vacation/honeymoon. Our weeks have been getting busier and busier. For example... Lessons (of course...) BUT Steve will be hanging cabinets on Wednesday, Playing King of the blues AND doing open mic on thursday, Friday we're running sound/coaching our kids at the Idol Night and Saturday we have a show with Megan!! Ummmm... yeah, needless to say... we're losing our minds.
come on honeymoon...come on.
Today I've been feeling awful. I've been dizzy, exhausted, hot, and nauseated. Thank goodness for Steve who brought me medicine, diet coke, and chocolates. We are REALLY looking forward to a vacation/honeymoon. Our weeks have been getting busier and busier. For example... Lessons (of course...) BUT Steve will be hanging cabinets on Wednesday, Playing King of the blues AND doing open mic on thursday, Friday we're running sound/coaching our kids at the Idol Night and Saturday we have a show with Megan!! Ummmm... yeah, needless to say... we're losing our minds.
come on honeymoon...come on.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Meet...US
When I created this blog I knew that eventually I'd want it to be about us. I (Karyn) love you write and miss doing it when I don't have the time or just feel creatively drained. Steve and I have been married for 5 weeks so far and we REALLY enjoy married life. We ALSO love playing music, writing and cracking one another up. Here are a few things about us before we get this going...
Karyn:
- Stays up late and sleeps in...when she can
- Loves eyeshadow lots and lots of it
- Likes when her syrup is in the fridge
-Can't sleep next to the door, and doesn't like to sleep with the closet doors open
-Will melt your face off with her singing
Steve:
-Stays up late and gets up early
-Really likes to read incredibly intelligent books
-Prefers his syrup out in the cupboard
-Sleeps next to the door because he's a man...
-Will melt your face with his guitar playing
That's just a little about us. Enjoy the blog!:)
Karyn:
- Stays up late and sleeps in...when she can
- Loves eyeshadow lots and lots of it
- Likes when her syrup is in the fridge
-Can't sleep next to the door, and doesn't like to sleep with the closet doors open
-Will melt your face off with her singing
Steve:
-Stays up late and gets up early
-Really likes to read incredibly intelligent books
-Prefers his syrup out in the cupboard
-Sleeps next to the door because he's a man...
-Will melt your face with his guitar playing
That's just a little about us. Enjoy the blog!:)
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